This summer has been difficult, both in game and out. I don’t make friends easily and a few years back there ended up being an incident that cost me almost all of mine – I’m awkward, blunt, and argumentative. Not conductive to keeping long term friends, really. So for the past few years I’ve been quite isolated, but still trying to do the best I can for my family.
Then I started falling out of love with the game that I had played for years. I couldn’t decide if it was because I didn’t have a community, or because the games were changing, or because I just wasn’t into it the way I used to. Maybe some combination of things. It’s easy to get caught up in the doom and gloom that seems to be life, but I also actively tried to get out of that mindset, but it just wasn’t working.
I am just not interested in playing World of Warcraft right now, despite the release of a brand new expansion. I haven’t even logged in. I removed everything off of the auction house and tucked it away. I’m debating leaving all of the Warcraft discords I belong to – and I started playing some GW2 but even that can’t seem to hold my attention. The one game I’m still playing with any sort of desire to log in, is EVE and Wurm Online. I’ve been spending more time doing art, both traditional and digital. I’ve been active on mastodon & bluesky after the disaster that is twitter / X. I just don’t want to support people like Musk. They certainly don’t deserve it.
Everyone is wrapped up in their own stuff, which is expected and reasonable. I’m not even sure why I’m rambling this here except that I needed to get the words out. I frequently (even at this age) think that people would just be better off if I wasn’t here, wasn’t creating issues, wasn’t being all emotional. Anyway. It has been a difficult summer. I’m hoping the cooler weather and the beginning of fall brings some relief, but I also homeschool so there is no real ‘break’ from everything. Guess we’ll see.